I've been feeling tired of these girls around us, and how he just ignores how im feeling and saying things like its not something that i should worry too much. when in fact it irritates me much.
I dont want to sound like im going to throw a bitch fit, but i just want to make him understand.
Y'know i've been handling things like this for years and it doesnt get any easier for me. Its just keep irritating me and weigh me down.

I know things like; other girls cannot be avoided. But i just wanted to make him know how tired im feeling and make me feel better. Im tired of him still protecting other girls and promising me things.
When actually deepdown i still believe that he's not that bad.

I know its bad to talk about past too much.  But i dont know what going on his mind that he could be such an ignorant person to me. Our journey was really rough and hard for me. I have to handle things around us (that he thought wasnt a big deal). Handling his exes. Handling girls. I just wish he could see how much im suffering and start to pay REAL attention to how im actually feeling.

But you know thats not going to happen.  At least not in an easy way

What's happiness?

How about we get in the car and drive around randomly, we could start in the morning and waste time until night. listening to the radio and feeling surprised when it plays our favorite songs?

Bring the camera and make a memory from it. Yes i could fill half of the 4GB memory with pictures of us.

how about if we drive to the beach, or we could make it to the outskirts of town, buy loads of foods and drinks

From the supermarket, enjoying the weather even if its rainy or shiny.

I dont know, but i remember im happy whenever i roll the window down and feeling the breeze.

I dont need flowers and teddies. Hell, it doesnt even crossed my mind at once.

dude, i'd do anything to be happy hahaha and those simple things sure can make us happy.

:(

when you were just too busy being fabulous
too busy to think about us
I don't know what you were dreaming of
Somehow you forgot about love
Running after something that never comes
What in the world are you running from
When you were just too busy being fabulous

Baby blue eyes

Another bird

Got this in grandma's house :)

My eagle :) 2 weeks old

If murder is not a crime, you've dead a long time ago

Let's take happy pills and smile baby.
i've been thinking about being young about hatred about life recently. About being independent also. and and i want tokyo flash :D:D:D. Enough on the prologue, i want to write down about my dreams lately. it's been really weird yet seems real, i knew it was a dream so i tend to make myself wake up when i get nightmares.
and yes i get nightmares a lot.

there's a day when i dreamt about being chased by a psychopat and i was hiding under my bed, and then that murder found me and give his/her(more than one person) up to me and gave me their knife so i could slit their throath. i could really see the knife on their throath the bloody red flesh and then i ran again and that thing happened like 3 times that day. i woke up puzzled yet scared.

I had a lot of confusing dream and continuing dream. i mean i get the same exact dream like 3 times in 3 days, so in that dream i really knew what i was going through and not make the same mistake like in my last same dream. uh