Has gone (again)

It sucks when you realize

the one that you've been waiting for a long long time

have to date with other girl.

and then,

it sucks when you know that you still dont have the strenght to let him go

It screwed your heart up when you know

that he seems have the same feeling as yours

but its confusing cause he isn't brave enough to say

and there it goes even bad,

the time when you say NO to other boys

just because you scare that he will leave you alone

then it sucks badly

when for 24 hours you wait for his text on your phone

and you give up and text him first

but end up being ignored without a single reason

and you feel a deep sad when you see he smile at you at school

when he waves his hand to you

and when he call your cell even if you can see eachother

when the night comes, you still on the road

hanging with bore

you think of him without knowing if he even think of you

when you see shooting stars up above the sky

you feel like you really want to take his hand and take him with you

but then again, it hurts when you know you can't even hold his hand

yes i think of you

in every blink of an eye

maaf, im tired & I have to admit ;(

by Arsiduiyana T. Rahma